I don’t even know where to start with 2009.  It’s been a rollercoaster year of trying to figure out my life and myself.  I’ve had a difficult time staying positive about most things because there always seems to be a downside to everything. It’s been a year of discovering changes, meeting a lot of new people, travels, and setting personal goals.

So what’s next?!  I’ve lived in Philadelphia for a little over 13 years now and I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with this city.  Alas, it has never felt like “home” to me.  I feel like I’ve spent the better part of the last 8 years just floating along and not doing anything in my life.  Granted, I don’t regret it because I never would have gotten to the point where I am today.

Traveling has been the one goal that has stuck with me ever since I was young.  I’ve always wanted to “see the world”.  And while everyone is always saying that I’m going somewhere and I travel more than most people do, I personally don’t feel like I’m traveling enough.  In August when I left Calgary, one of my best friends told me that I need to give up my life in Philadelphia so that I can change my life and travel.  I left telling him that I can’t do it because I am too settled at this point in my life now.  Fifteen minutes later, I was on the plane and crying my eyes out because I knew that he was right.  We live finite lives and we’re not getting younger.  We can’t take our “stuff” along with us when we die.  And whomever said that there’s no time like the present was right.  So I will live out those dreams of traveling and photography.

For the last four months, I’ve been creating lists of pros and cons on moving out of Philadelphia.  The pros won. So sometime in the next couple of months, I am moving out of Philadelphia for good.  I don’t know exactly when I’m moving, where I’m moving to, or what’s next and it scares me.  My plan seems to change every week, but I’m realizing that maybe not having a plan is “the plan” after all.

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